Don't lie to death

Yesterday, the end of your life had taken it's place,
you're knocking on heavens door while I look in your face,
so dead, pale, blank, unforgetable for me,
your eyes wide open, but unable to see,
the dim expression of my eyes,
the slightly memory of your lies.
You bastard promised me never to leave me alone,
that you'll be there, never left me on my own.
you damn liar swore to be my wings when I fall down,
you swore to resurrect my life when I'll be drown,
you said you'll always be there to distract my fears,
now aren't you able to, your face under my tears.
I loved you, I still do, but I never told,
now I'm standing here, your cold hands to hold.
Run away with my hope, run away with my heart,
now I can't follow you, we're drifting apart.
I wished I could, damn god, I swear I would
correct what desterny had completly misunderstood,
we both ought to be here, lying on the ground,
not me standing here, hearing your voice resound
in my head, an unbroken echo driving me mad,
paralysing my feelings, making my soul bad.
Why weren't we able, just as long as you lived,
to talk it all over, before we started to drift?
We were up high, or deep down low,
shared both, happiness and sorrow,
and even if the greatest wave shall fall,
we stood together, high up and tall.
You were my life, and i lost it with you,
now everything's meaningless, nothing seems true,
my body is empty, my soul has gone away,
my spirit was captured, nothing to say.
They told me time is able to heal every wound,
yeah, really, that's great, just then another round?
Die to become forgetten, forget to stay alive,
beautiful vicious circle, sharper than a knife,
cutting you sanity into little, dirty pieces,
each of it infected by foreign deseases,
one by fear, the other by love,
darkness is all what they're consisting of.
You are a prisoner, you can't break out,
because of your feelings you have to shout,
noone can help you, not even you will,
you're blind and want your pain to kill,
to burn out all what makes you feel,
mabye then, your soul returns to heal,
what had been destroyed as you heard his last breath,
when it had come to take him, his death.