Fragile, but mine

I built myself up, piece by piece
I thought my pride would increase
After all the horrible things with which destiny hit me
The hope began to grow slightly
And I was a human being with trust
Today everything shatterd to dust
From the very top, my tower began to tremble
There was this person…but I began to crumble
My own heart into pieces of hatred and despair
But I can’t help it, it is nothing I could bear
For this, my shoulders are too thin
Although I thought I would begin
Begin a new life, but I feel like it’s a dream
With what I am, this will never seem
As a happy, true life for me
Cause there was so much of which I’d like to flee
Because of myself I was depressive, desperate and decreasing.
Decreasing my value from the very beginning
To a tiny rest of nothing within my soul
And only this person can make me whole
But he won’t do, cause he’s not able to
And I’m sitting in my tower waiting for you,
Though I know that you won’t appear.
One of my eyes cries one tear,
In this tear is the last hope I held in my chest
It’s running down my face, shining the last time
A bit of happiness, for me it is a crime
I won’t be happy until the moment I’m worth of your view
But I will decide whent this moment’ll come true,
Cause you will forgive me too fast,
I need to think of my past.
Of my mistakes and of the reasons I hurt you so much
But for now I desire your touch,
And this is incredible, impossible, insulting as well
For you, for me, for us to tell.
I love you, I don’t know when it will stop
This wish it would, hits the top
Of my tower, still sitting in there
Crying, beginng the end to come near
And it was there for a visit…
I survived, but I tried it, I admit.
Now we’re sitting together, the end and me
Thinking of a solution which could be
I will need the end, I know I will
It won’t end my life, as I’m hoping still.
It will end the pain, and the fear and the love
It will help me creating a new tower standing on a dove.