And thats how it should be ( Gedichte)

And thats how it should be


Tears of hate shattered my Eyes
I see always your smiling face at my site.
Even your death can´t wash it away
But sincerely then I won´t let you go.

Can´t say I´m good for a smile
But then, only she noticed my pain.
And she had give me an impression of live.
Yet, even now she is dead I can´t forget.

I won´t forget, because she was a reason of smile.
And now I´m feeling of nothing as cry.
Someday you told me I´m pretty egoistic.
When I think about it, you are absolutley right.

I couldn´t tell you how I really feel.
Even in your last moments of breath, I had nothing to say.
Yet, after you leaved me, I´m crying.
What am I?

Nowadays when I past the streets.
Smoke and burning teasing my face.
And if people speak, I don´t give any answer.
What art of livestyle is this?

Sometimes I don´t feel like I´m alive.
But at that time- I sensed more as this feeling.
Perhaps it was happiness.
Even it was only for a short time.

After I had realized this, I became more hatred about myself.
Because I don´t had courage. Because I´m weak.
I couldn´t even say a word of hope to you.
All I was concerned about was myself.

How darn, this makes me sick.
How it comes, God gave this person like me a live?
How it comes he take a live, cheerful as hers?
When I think about it she was a better than me, in many ways.

Why did God do this? Take lives of those who are strong.
Let live pathetic and shamefull people like me.
I didn´t understand it in the past.
And if I´m faithfull to myself even today I don´t understand it.

After this realitionship I ended in crime.
Every day of my life, luck goes with me, but I know.
I know someday dead comes to everbody.
I´m looking forward this day.

Perhaps then I can smile.
At night, I won´t find a way to sleep.
It has been like this since a long time.
But when I closed my eyes, I noticed this moment comes nearer.

If I´m dead hate and fault will be gone away.
When I´m truthfull to myself, I´m already dead.
A died a long long time ago.
It was at that moment I couldn´t take responsibilty for what had I done.

Perhaps this is the way how it should be.



Die Rechtschreibung ist nicht so gut, aber ich hoffe trotzdem das es einigen gefallen hat. Das ist mein erster Versuch ein Gedicht auf Englisch zu schreiben :)